Friday, August 10, 2012

Stares

Staring. Stares. Incessant stares. Gazes which last far longer than we knew they could possibly last. These are the sort which, especially from the opposite gender, can be most despiseable. Ugh.
You ever get where there are just some people who you want to say to, "keep your eyes to yourself, please?" It would be nice if that could be done in a nice, decent way.

“Stares”
By Leah K. Oxendine

I sit here, defenseless, powerless,
Unable to make you cease
Apparently,
You’re captivated with me
Wish I could make you stop

You pierce me with your eyes,
You penetrate, I despise
Wishing I could take your stare
And push it far away from me elsewhere
Anywhere

You make my insides crawl
You drive me up the wall
You know it ain’t polite?
When you watch me like a hawk
When will you learn to stop?

I probably shouldn’t care
I try to make myself forget
What’s a little incessant stare, they say
What’s a little gaze that never ends?
Everything

Stop devouring me with your gaze
You’ll never win my heart this way
I’m not an exhibit for you to examine
So wishing I could take your stare
And push it far away, elsewhere.
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Saturday, August 4, 2012

Historical Clothing - Corsets

Hello everyone, here is a post I wrote in February 2011, a revision from an article I'd written wayy back in 2009. Hope y'all enjoy!


 
Corsets (Revised Version)
By Leah K. Oxendine


What fashion garment had played a major role in womens' dress for centuries, its purpose staying the same, the whole time? And this particular accessory.... just where did it originate? Who has it been used by? What should our view be towards it? Very likely, by now, (and hence from the title) you know that this fashion garment that I'm referring to, is the corset. What other clothing addition has been so popular, so accepted to one's wardrobe? For all the way up until the 1930's and 40's, corsets had been used. And even today, renditions are used. Simpler, lighter and more practical 'corsets' are used (at times) in weddings, and other formal events. Corsets are used practically all the time in reenactments, and a lot of the time they are considered just a part of the outift, no questions.

During the 1700's and 1800's, corsets were called "stays". The origin of the word comes from "to support".

When I first wrote the Corsets article, looking back, my writing skill in the article and my perceiving of the topic was not as seasoned or learned. I wrote things that I happen to disagree with, now, after more research on the topic. For example, I wrote that "there is merely one purpose of a corset/stay, overall."  Well, yes, in some ways that could be said to be true; BUT I did leave out another factor very worthy of consideration. While I said that "...it(the corset) is based upon vanity; the desire to make oneself more attractive" there is yet a practical, yet surprising use for the corset which I deemed a thing of frivolousness.

What might this use be? The answer is only but 2 paragraphs above. What made the corset a helpful thing in a ladies' dress was how it acted as a support for the wearer's back, when she donned many heavy layers of skirt and petticoat PLUS the hoopskirt.The hoop itself truly did need something underneath to keep it from potentionally damaging the wearer's back and posture, which it would certainly do if not for extra support around the waist area. It needed something to help hold up all the weight of the skirts and petticoats, which the corset helped do pretty well.

So, while the corset could be seen as pure vanity, it did play a decent role as a back/upper body support mechinism.

Yes, many women of the 1600's and centuries after added another troublesome chore to their life by constantly wearing the uncomfortable corset. If I were to wear one every day (and I had the chance to do so several years ago, for about 3 years. Not pleasant!) I'd get real tired with the thing. (which I did!)

Laura Ingalls Wilder, in her early teens, wore one because of her mother Caroline's wishes. From what I have further read about 'Ma', she was a woman who believed in following the fashions. She was a lady who stuck to the rule of the book. She told Laura about how when she had been just married to Charles, "he could span her waist with his two hands."  I think Laura never cared for the actual, individual fashions, but she did want to be fashionable.

By the middle of the 16th century, corsets were commonly used garments among women. These stays were made of stiffened multiple layers of linen with wooden busks or shafts inserted in a pocket at the front in order to keep the corset and figure straight. But long before this time, even traveling back to the time of the ancient Egyptians, you could find something serving to flatter the figure. So, finding the corset's origin proves rather difficult.

The first mention of what may rightly be termed the corset is at the end of the fourteenth century. yet, as I said before, tracing the origin of corsets down to where they first appeared is extremely difficult.
Women have always seeked to beautify themselves, that is just in our nature. We have been made with a desire in our hearts to be beautiful. There is also a nature within us to spend far too much time over our personal health and beautification. This is a producer, yet also a product, of vanity. Continuing in the above manner,(spending hours on your hairstyle and spending many a minute tightening your girdle (for the women of centuries past) etc.) produces more of a vain heart than ever, for since you spent so much time on yourself, you care very much of what people think of you, how you appear to others.

Either way, the corset is and was a thing worn by ladies who cared much for what other people thought of them. They wanted people to think they were attractive, or in Mrs. Caroline Ingalls' case, they wanted to fit in with the others, go along with the current fashions.  While the corset could be used for back support, the only reason it might be used for that was if one would wwear a hoopskirt-- another thing of the fashions.
I can tell you I do know a bit about what a corset would feel like. As I said earlier on, I wore a 'corset', in actuality, a scoliosis spine brace, made of thick plastic. I used to have to wear it nearly all day, in order for my spine to straighten. (Praise God that it has!)  

I wonder... if many of us decided to try out such a thing as a corset, say for a YEAR or so, how our opinions of it would change? Now that would be an interesting study. Think you'd be up to it?

Sincerely,

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

My Film Company's *50th* Film!!

Many of you probably already know about Glory Film Productions, a little amateur film company run by me, my friends and family. Well, GFP's latest film, "Rumpelstiltskin" is finally here! And guess what? It just happens to be our....drum roll, please....50th film!!!

WOOP-WOOP! Huzzah! It's so hard to believe that we have now reached the big 5-0. 

SO....Here is the link to "Rumpelstiltskin" if you would like to see it. Hope it makes you smile! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V80blMvQ67k&list=UU2Ldl8UbiVsR1t9Mjk-KuLw&index=1&feature=plcp

Well, please tell me what you think of our 50th film. :) I hope you enjoy it. If you did, please share it! We absolutely adore word-of-mouth!

If you want to see our film company website, also, here's the link for that. http://www.gloryfilm.webs.com/

Blessings,

Friday, July 20, 2012

Luna, Luna, Luna


I have always been fascinated with the moon. La Luna. There is a beauty found in it unlike any of man's creations, inventions or technology. No matter what we humans may try, and no matter how 'smart' we may become, we will never be able to replicate the extraordinary splendor of God's creation....the natural world.

I have always enjoyed gazing at the gentle magnificence of la luna on winter evenings...especially winter evenings because the stars are much brighter and clearer during winter, and thus really compliment and set off the beauty of the moon. But these photos I took a few weeks ago, in the midst of summer, on a completely starless night at my grandmother's.




It's always been a dream of mine to get a perfect, clear photo of the moon. But in the past, I had never been able to with what cameras I had in possession. Only until recently, could I photograph the moon at a better quality and one I was genuinely satisfied with, because, only until recently, (actually my 16th birthday in January) did I have a really good camera to shoot with.

So, finally, I've obtained some nice shots of one of my favorite subjects. What do you think? Have you ever tried photographing the moon? What came of your experiences? I'd love to hear about it!

Well, hope y'all's summer so far as been amazing! Mine sure has!

Blessings,
 

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Through the Fire

"Every man's work shall be made manifest: for the day shall declare it, because it shall be revealed by fire; and the fire shall try every man's work of what sort it is." 1 Corinthians 3:13

Have you ever experienced a time in your life when it felt like you were being tried?
A time when every event during the day seemed like a test, a challenge? I'm sure most of you have....most people do, at one point or another. It's really quite normal and expected, especially if you are a follower of Jesus Christ.

Sometimes....it can be hard. You can almost feel the chastening of the Lord's fire as it dissolves each work, making known what each was made of. Each thought and intention, opened and dissected to reveal what was truly in the heart. "Every man's work shall be made manifest..."

Sometimes, this can be humiliating as well as painful. Many an instance, we don't want our Creator to see what's truly in our hearts. We know something's wrong, thus, we are ashamed and guilt-ridden. Many times, there is sin which is blatantly obvious to us, and it's no mystery or enigma to try and figure out what we're doing wrong.  It's spelled out in red letter, right there in front of our noses.

There's no hiding from reality.

Sometimes, though, the sin is not so obvious to us; and we may not even realize that we are committing it. This can be difficult to identify without YHWH coming in and removing the scales from our eyes. We may continue on for weeks, months, years even, thinking we are without a particular sin, and all the while, knee-deep in it.

Personally, I have been seeing more and more examples of this within my own life.
Recently, we had a friend's children over to stay with us while she and her husband were out of town for a family emergency. This was an experience I will not soon forget.

Let me make this known, I am certainly not perfect. That should've been obvious by now, anyway. But sometimes I think a little higher of myself than I should. I consider myself "too good" to do a particular sin, but guess who manages to always keep falling down again and again into the same wrong-doing?

Yep. That's right. Little ol' me. Miss "thought-she-was-way-more-patient-than-she-really-is."

Frankly, I never knew I could be such a nasty jerk! I always thought I was a pretty patient soul, patient enough, at least, but NEVER overly impatient and hasty to lash out. I guess wrong. WRONG, WRONG, WRONG.

I think God personally peeled the scales from my eyes over this last weekend, chiding and reminding me of my sinful nature which I'd seemingly forgotten about temporarily. I think He was trying to show me once again about how imperfect I am on my own, without Him, and about how desperately I need His divine help to drag myself out of the morass of my sin. Actually, I could never drag myself out. He has to do the rescuing, not me. I can't rescue anybody. That's why He came to earth, to begin with. To rescue the souls of those He created. I am so thankful for His precious sacrifice....it would be a scary, scary world and horrific eternity, without it.

So...back to the topic of works being tried. Through the experiences the Lord let me go through this past weekend, I think He really did "try my works" and my heart. He showed me how impatient I have let myself become, and how I need to repent of this impatience. I gained priceless experience, knowledge and wisdom from this visit., and actually feel a few years older, too, haha. :) But, in a good way. It's a sobering, yet wonderful feeling to know the Lord opened your eyes to something He wanted you to see.
Even if it was a time of reproving and chastising. I am still very thankful for it and wouldn't dare think of looking back or wishing it didn't happen. (what does simply wishing do for anybody, anyway?!)

Have you been seeing God work in your life lately? How has He been pointing you to His ways and kingdom? What have you been learning lately about His will for your life?

Well, I need to be going now. Traveling out of town for the weekend for my dad's work, and need to finish preparing for the trip. :)

Hope y'all are having a very blessed summer so far!


Blessings,
 

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Green Tea Girl....

Hey y'all! Got a couple questions for ya. First of all...for my jewelry business... right now it's called "Leah Kathryn Creations". Before, it was "Lotus Art." Now, I am wondering if I should change the name again. I really like "Green Tea Girl Creations". What do ya think?

I also want to know if y'all would be interested in movie reviews here on Apassionata. I would like to do a series of film reviews from my perspective as a libertarian, Creationist Christ-follower. Would y'all be interested?


Happy Wednesday!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

A Sickening Account...


I have a younger brother who is 5, this year he will be 6. This year, he will be in kindergarten. If he had been the one in this girl's situation, I would likely break down into tears and weep. That poor little girl.
You almost wonder if the teacher had any brains whatsoever. Do people realize that little kids' bodies are smaller, thus food travels through them more quickly and in result, they are constantly needing to use the bathroom?
Hey, I have 4 younger brothers. 3 of them are still at this stage of life where they are ALWAYS going to the toilet! It's reality and can't be altered. What was this teacher thinking, making a 6-year-old wait such a period with no bathroom breaks? *shakes head*

I am, once again, so incredibly thankful that my family homeschools. It is SUCH an incredible blessing. One of these days, I should do a blog post on that...."101 Reasons I Love Being Homeschooled." LOL that is actually not too bad of an idea. What say ye?

Well, time to sign off. Babysitting job tomorrow morning. And I have to get up EARLY. I am not an early morning person.

Blessings,