Showing posts with label reenacting. Show all posts
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Monday, January 4, 2016

Kintsukuroi // beautiful ending {the final chapter of 2015}


"Oh, why do I let myself let go
of Hands that painted the stars
and hold tears that fall?
And the pride of my heart makes me forget
It's not me but You, that makes the heart beat
I'm lost without You, Your dying for me
So tell me, what is our ending?
Will it be beautiful, so beautiful?"

-Beautiful Ending by BarlowGirl

// 2015 was a whirlwind. 
It was a tsunami that has left me stunned, numbed and speechless. I still can't believe it's nearly gone, and I still can't believe all that happened within these 365 days. 

Not gonna lie, I've had pleasanter years. 2015 was exhilarating and bombastic. It was full of beautiful moments and wonderful memories. 

But I also made mistakes, had my heart broken a few times and cried myself to sleep more times than I can count. Along with the good memories, there are plenty of times I wish I could forget. Things I wish I hadn't said, bad choices I made. I wandered away from God many times. 
I feel like I was a prodigal child this year in my relationship with the Lord. Still, as I draw back closer to Him, His grace and peace only becomes sweeter. 

Even amidst those painful experiences and messes I got myself into, there is still a silver lining. I learned valuable lessons which I will never forget, and you can mark my word, I won't be making the same mistakes again. I am a stronger person for having gone through 2015. Parts of me may have been broken, but I know these scars do not define me. When you look at me, don't think that I presume to know everything or imagine myself to be immaculate. Don't look surprised when you find out I've taken some hits and botched things up. 

I was just a shattered vessel that the Lord pieced back together with love and patience. I'm no longer broken because He has won the victory for me and He has pulled me out of the ashes. I'm not the same girl you knew last year. I'm a work in progress. God is writing my story, and I'm just trying to go where He leads. 

So, from this perspective, 2015 was like a piece of kintsukuroi - broken Japanese pottery that is pieced back together with gold. In the end, the pottery is even more beautiful for having been broken.

Some of the highlights from 2015 included but were not limited to -
♪ many amazing reenactments and improving my reenacting impressions vastly
♪ taking up snare drumming for reenacting, creating my female soldier impression
♪ my very first individual piano concert
♪ lots of piano teaching
♪ lots of instruction with my own piano teacher 
♪ lots of adventures traveling and exploring new places with people I care about
♪ lots of trips to get coffee with mom 
♪ starting a beautiful courtship with my best male friend
♪ revising The Rebels of Florida, to be completely historically accurate
♪ started brainstorming other new book ideas
♪ got to go to lots of dances
♪ started up my own local monthly contra dance group 
♪ got my first car
♪ went shooting, canoeing, camping, and hiked everywhere possible
♪ got paid to do my biggest art commission ever 
♪ got to meet two of my distance writing friends, Lauren and Carilyn in person
♪ our family had a cow for a little while
♪ got to hear/see the Piano Guys in person

from when our dear friends visited



reenacting memories
McIntosh contra
Gainesville contra, for the first time together

my ride!

before-Maygan's-wedding girls' day out





My best friend's wedding happened <3



With one of my piano students at the first recital I coordinated 


playing with the Morses at Ocali Country Days




possibly my favorite picture of the year


canoe trips with him are the best
My favorite commission yet 

 Southern Lights playing at the Micanopy festival 

Southern Lights playing at the McIntosh fall festival


from the visit with my dear friend Carilyn 
teaching my brothers their anatomy got kinda crazy
he's into daredevil, i'm into river tam and shiny 


korean writings - i think this will be my motto this year 
Anyways, there you go!
It was a memorable year. Here's to twenty-sixteen being remarkably better, and much more full of Christ. ♪ ♥


Saturday, November 21, 2015

The Marathon of Authentic Reenacting


Civil War reenacting is a world of its own.  And not just a world, but an art.
 If only the spectators that gather to watch a battle on Saturday afternoons knew what goes on when they're not around! If only the general public knew what goes into making a truly authentic reenacting impression!
Every reenactor is on their own journey - hopefully to a better state of authenticity. 
However, some folks don't seem to give a rat's heiny for representing the past correctly, and that's just how it is. The sad reality is that there are far too many Civil War reenactors (in Florida, anyway) that just don't care about taking the effort to do it right, and some are even almost proud of it. 
I'll be honest with y'all - these people drive me smack-dab crazy and make me want to smash things. Especially when they're the ones that get covered by the media or local press.
 It bothers me when the spectators crowd around them for pictures, unknowingly calling it "period dress" and believing that what they're seeing is a copy of something from the past. 

It bothers me when you get questions and comments like:
"Is that real fire?" (Why don't you touch it and find out? Har har har. xP) 
"Are you Amish? Mennonite?" (Last I heard, neither of these groups would condone the amount of color in the fabrics I'm wearing for my Civilian impression, let alone the idea of a woman soldier.) 
"See kids, that's how they spent their time back then! They didn't have TV and cell phones so they had to play musical instruments instead!" (GRRRR, JUST GRRRRR WHAT'S WRONG WITH PLAYING MUSIC INSTEAD OF WATCHING TV?!) 
"Gosh, I'm glad I'm not wearing all those layers! You poor thing, you must be soooo hot!" (If women could do it for over two centuries, I'm sure I'll survive, thanks.) 
"Did that tiny waist just come with your outfit or is it real?" (Ummmmm...?! Excuse me?? No, I got a plastic fake waist installed just so I could fit these clothes. Seriously what the even...) 

By the way, these were all real things people have said to me at some point in my reenacting journey. I know, it's ridiculous. 
Maybe we just have done a poor job of educating people properly; maybe most Americans would rather be watching a popular TV show than spending their free time researching history. 
Either way, the general impression is that most spectators have no idea what's accurate and what's not at a Civil War reenactment. (Kudos to those who actually do, I know you're out there! PLEASE TELL ME YOU DO ACTUALLY EXIST)

I so desperately want to change this. It's part of the reason I reenact to begin with. I know I don't have it all together yet, but I'm doing my best and I'm doing my research. I know my pagoda-sleeved blue day dress is made of cotton instead of wool or a nicer material as pagoda sleeves were usually made out of. I know I still need to buy a quality hoop, for the proper 1860s skirt silhouette. I know my bangs need to be grown out completely. 
It's a work in progress. 
At least I know my goals and I acknowledge my previous mistakes. I live and learn, I adapt and try to conform to what I have researched and studied concerning the War and life in that time period for the region I'm in. 
I know what I'm aiming for in the future. I'm going for as close to true authenticity as possible and even though it will take a while to achieve this, I'm willing to do what it takes to get there. 

Crinolines: the bane of my existence 
Even for no other reason than just to be one other female reenactor who is giving the public an accurate picture of what our American ancestors looked like. It's worth it.

Reenacting is so much more than portraying history, though. 
It is a social club, a chance to get away from the modern world for a little while, and even an opportunity for relaxation for some. It's a way to meet new friends, and form bonds that last for years even if you only see your reenacting family a few times a year. 
Also, if you're single and looking to mingle? You might just end up meeting the love of your life. Who knows? There are a lot of single folks in the hobby!

Florida doesn't have many events in comparison to some northern states, and unfortunately, a lot of our CW events are very farby. (aka, lacking historical accuracy on many levels)
 But you know what? Most of the time, you don't go just for the event itself. You go for the people. For the chance to dress in old clothes, throw modern conveniences to the wind and hang out with your friends for a weekend. 

It's wonderful. 

When I think about how I've only been truly reenacting for three years come January, (five if you count my farby days of dressing in "prairie clothes" at Ocali Country Days in my early teens) I feel very blessed that I got in with a good circle of supportive people. 
Even though I've written a book on the War, and have been studying it for nearly a decade of my life, I keep forgetting that it wasn't long ago I was one of the most-inaccurate-looking girls at the events.
And that kinda scares me. I used to be one of those people that knew what they were /supposed/ to do, but wanted to rebel just because I could. Take for example, wearing my hair down instead of up and parted as is 1860s customary. I knew it wasn't right, but I didn't care. 
Anyway, only in 2015 have I really started putting my research to use and begun 'walking the talk' by taking the jump from mainstream to authentic reenacting. 
God blessed me by putting a few different people in my life over that period who made me feel at home at events, and helped me meet new connections so that I didn't feel like an outsider. 

While I didn't have anyone to guide me and show me the do's and don'ts of reenacting, or point me to research I needed, somehow it all worked out fine. 
Doing my own research and having some kind, thoughtful friends in the hobby was enough. 

exhibit a: from the VERY early days of my "living history impressions". 2013. That look is about what my reaction now is to my hair being down at an event and wearing an eBay special with no corset or proper underpinnings...
Reenacting is awesome, but the reality is, being a beginner in the hobby certainly isn't easy.
Even though I didn't experience the struggle of trying to fit in, and even though I didn't get openly ridiculed for what I was wearing, (surely it happened behind my back, though!) I have witnessed the pressure on newcomers I've met recently. Somehow I miraculously missed the whole phase myself, because I got welcomed into the hobby with open arms. 

 But seriously. The plethora of things you are expected to acquire and knowledge you're expected to know starting out is pretty overwhelming. I mean let's be real here. If you've never reenacted before, what are the chances you'll be able to afford purchasing a full, authentic kit during a phase of one or two events? Even during just one year alone? It's almost impossible unless you've been researching for a while already, or find incredibly good deals or have somebody just give you their stuff for free. 
Or if you just got money sitting around. 

The nice thing is that there are units that will lend you kits for a small cost, and that's really helpful for a beginning reenactor who wants to get the feel of the hobby without investing in it yet. 
But if you're going for Civilian? It's not quite that easy. Unless you have a friend who lends you one of her ensembles, you're probably not going to find anyone else who'll be so kind as to loan you an authentic female civilian costume. (Costume as in, outfit. In the 1860s, this is the terminology they used. Outfit was not a word used in relation to clothing.) 
And so then you have the sutler's row ladies trying to talk you into a calico Garibaldi dress which they insist is completely period correct, especially for your first reenacting ensemble. *SCREAMS* 
So yeah, it's not a minuscule undertaking. Unless you have a circle to jump into with somebody you already know, you'e more than likely gonna feel like the outsider for a while. The reenacting circle isn't perfect and just like any other social group, you're gonna find cliques. It happens. 


But to those beginners who decide they're willing to push through any potential ridicule, and dedicate time to research, I seriously applaud you. We definitely need new faces in the reenacting community if we want it to stay living for future generations. 

And honestly, it's not as bad as I may have made it sound. Most people are actually very nice to you even if you have your accuracy all off. As long as you get in with a family-friendly group or unit, you'll be fine. Even though there will always be folks at events you want to avoid, there will also always be people who are very kind and accommodating. 


A good friend of mine says that reenacting isn't comparable to a sprint, but instead a marathon.
If you aim for authenticity, you're going to working on it for a while. It's going to be a long road, and perhaps even a lifelong journey depending on how passionate you are. 

I sure hope that it will be a lifelong pursuit for me.  Because honestly, it's one of the best things that's happened to me. 


This is the closest I am to accuracy right now, all I need to complete this look is removing the gloves and wearing a larger hoop. 
Going barefoot onto the battlefield at Ocklawaha.
My friend Daniel and I at Ocklawaha. I should be wearing my frock coat but the photographer caught me off guard here during a break period. 

Monday, March 24, 2014

This Title Has Nothing To Do With This Post

 
Hola queridas!
 
What's been happening with y'all lately? Well, I've been meaning for several weeks to put up a post about the most recent reenactment. So here I finally am.

 
This was our third Civil War reenactment. One of the best things about it was how close it was! Only about 20 minutes away from my house so the driving time was superb in comparison to the other two reenactments which were further away.

Jason, a new friend.
The Nature Coast reenactment took place in Williston this year on a privately owned farm. It was the smallest reenactment I've been to yet, but that didn't deter from the experience.

 
This reenactment wasn't based off an actual, historical event. Therefore the battle was 'made up' in a sense. Knowing this, I have to admit I was more amused with it than anything else. Is that bad? I know we were supposed to take it seriously since it was an effort to recreate mildly something from one of the bloodiest events in history. Still. It's not nearly the same (thank God!) and when you have an announcer who's a comedian going the whole time, well....

 
Kay took all these battle photos, by the way. She, Maygan and I came to play music as we always do. Also, we had an additional person in our group this time. Maygan's guy friend, Callan.
 
It was a fun time of fellowship, but I have to wonder if perhaps I was the loopiest of the little band. I mean, I'm loud and outgoing anyway, and everyone else seemed to be more in control of themselves somehow. *shrug* Oh well. Nothing new.




 
Our music-playing went decently, but it was pretty warm out and there were no trees anywhere whatsoever. The only shade came from the ball tent and that was being occupied most of the day by other folks who wanted to get out of the sun.
 
Only in FL can you get a sunburn in March.
 

 

 
Cause that's what happened, with all of us. I didn't get burned that badly, just around my cheeks and nose, but still. It's not nice to feel like you're blushing all day long when you know you're not.

 
Yeah. When you've got stockings, a crinoline and lots of fabric on, it can get hot very easily. Maybe this is why there are few reenactments here in the state during summertime.


Oh well, it just made me enjoy that cold root bear all the more!
 









Smoke ring from the cannon fire!















Maygan was wise and packed lunches ahead of time for us to eat in the parking lot. We never buy food at these things because it's so expensive. Plus it's utter junk food anyway!
We had a feast. Yogurt, chips, sandwiches, crackers, yeah, basically the works.
 

Kay wanted to get some pictures in the dark by the train tracks. Yes, that's me in the shadow.



Maygan!

Moi, Christin, Maygan and Callan.

Part of the area for dancing/the ball. 
 
That evening we drove over to Winn-Dixie in Williston which was only a few minutes away, to use the restrooms/get 'fixed up' for the ball. This is part of the routine now, you see.
 

Kay!


Jason!

Christin!

Jason being dramatic? I don't know what was happening here but you can see me and Chris in the background on the right.

Kay's photography continues. 




The sunburn is evident here. And my hair which got insane and wild after the first polka.
 
I think this was my favorite ball ever. I enjoyed the last two greatly, but this one felt so much more relaxed and casual somehow. (Maybe because it was a smaller event, and I also knew more people this time.) But besides that, I had the pleasure of meeting a young man with similar beliefs and ended up dancing/hanging out with the whole evening.
 
The significance of this statement is that I had just been telling my dad earlier that week that surely there were other Christians in the reenacting field. You see, I've had a few run-ins now with creeps at these things. Basically, guys that were not gentlemen in the least bit, let alone possible Christ-followers. So my dad was skeptical about the kind of people that go to these events. I was trying to tell him that surely not all the reenacting folks were like that.
 
So this was exciting because it literally proved what I had been hoping/thinking. Not all reenactor guys are huge flirts! Yes, there are ones who are genuinely nice people and even share your basic belief system! 



I'm such a dork.

Most illogical, captain?


I love this one of Kay.

 
Anyway, as soon as I found out Chris was into evangelism and Creation Science I was thrilled. It's so encouraging to meet other Christians who are eager to share the Gospel and stand up for their beliefs! I told him he was the first blatant Creationist I'd met at one of these things.
 
Besides talking, we waltzed a good deal. And waltzing is always fun! The variety of different dances was smaller at this ball, compared to Olustee and Brooksville, but it was still a blast. We basically did the Pattycake Polka, and then Virginia Reel and waltzing over and over, with five-ten minute breaks in-between each dance.


I think we were going for a serious look here. That or just tired?  


I love this picture...and it kind of proves what I was saying earlier about who the crazy one in the group was.
Overall, it was a marvelous day and marvelous evening. I was so thankful that everything worked out and that we got to go!
 

This, and the pictures to follow were taken by a photographer who thankfully gave me his business card later.

The ball tent.



Chris and I talking.

Virginia Reel!
 
 
Maygan and Callan being adorable. ^_^


This picture is so cute I'm going to die!!!

 

Anyway, it was a spectacular day. I think all of us at Southern Lights agreed on this!
 
I had a bit of post-reenactment blues on Sunday since it was over, but that's what happens after every big event that you look forward to for a while.
 
Sadly, the reenactment season has drawn to a close for us for this spring. :'( It's bittersweet. We've only done three events, but it feels like so much more.  I think I'm addicted. Can't wait for the next season!
 
Well, hope y'all enjoyed this post. Now I'm off to go shoot some hoops and run before it rains!